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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

my life is damn unpleasant please...its screwed up seriously...

some people are just in this world to screw up my life lah...asshole...
SOME JERKS WENT TO GRAB MY MONEY YESTERDAY AND TORE IT AND THE FUCKER DOESNT KNOW HOW TO APOLOGISE LIKE HELOO!!
does your parents like teach you something called MANNERS!!! if you did wrong APOLOGIZE!!
dont be like an animal who walks away when its being scolded by its owner by that i mean DOG!!oh nevermind that the note was useable neither do i want your apology coz i know you never mean it.

My depression symptoms are showing up again i guess...i need help here man...seriously i feel like i can break down anytime,anywhere,anyhow...i just feel like is no longer as colorful and beautiful as it used to be...
My parents cant even understand me let alone mutual understanding...i just cant get through them i dont know why the f**k is this happening...
Its my O level year this year,i need something called moral support not scoldings and naggins for the wrong i did...and like how bad did i become treating me as if i murdered someone.

Oh and my friends are like omg pls...there are just SOME people who still cant accept me for being who i am,i mean its like who are you to force me to change because you want me to change,i cant change for everysingle different person i meet can i if i do where does my personalities go to,who do i become i am myself i am an existence that wants to know that i exist by having my own characteristics and personality,if you force me to be someone who i'm not,then i am as good as non-existence its like burning paper into ash...paper arent called paper anymore when it turned all black and burnt they are called ASHES that scatters and follows the wind wherever the wind blows them to.

for some reason i feel that something is missing in my life...something just somehow it is missing...i need a friend whom i can walk with though thick and thin...someone who can be by my side when i need them,i dont know if God has placed them here now in front of me if only i realise it...

i dont know if i looked happy to you people...but the thing is...please be sensitive when you say certain things...because i might be going through what you said...please do me this favor thank you...i might so called "pms" but if i do it out of the blue i apologize but please do understand the difficulties im going through its not...pleasant and easy honestly...but i belive God bring me to this he believe i can do it,He will bring me through it


Form your resolve. Charge forward. Leave no regrets. 8:35 PM

Saturday, August 12, 2006


went ta plaza to bowl yesterday with benjamin like who else will go n bowl with me at 11pm at night damn it...
D&T folio is due next friday im so dead coz i cant find anyone with a damned printer

scored like shit when i bowled please!! like average of 66 from average of 180 like woooooooooot
saw mr lam before that at mac i think he went to buy food for his family or smth la...

then went to eat mac with benjamin after bowling...he ate alot me too...we were both fed up with our damned low scores...

went over to my hse after that haha it was boring la...i ask him to talk he don wan stupid pig...
he slept he asked me to wake him up at 6...so i did it went like this

Me :*taps benjamin on his back softly*
Ben :*zzzz no reaction*
Me :*wth...taps harder on his back*
Ben :*wakes up,looks at the clock aiyah still 5.55 let me sleep awhile more*
Me :*darn sleepy so i went ok*
Both :*sleeps*
Me :*looks at the clock OMFG ITS 6.30*
Ben :*sleeps like a log*
Me :*keep tapping him on the back real hard but no apparent reaction*
so i went like "sial lah...,fed up arhh*SLEEPS*"
next morning at 8.30
Benjamin:OMG so late liao ahh,i need to go now
Me :orh..walks
wah he really sleep like one damn pig sial...nvm i shall try harder next time mwahahahah


Form your resolve. Charge forward. Leave no regrets. 9:36 PM

Friday, August 11, 2006


yeahhh at least i havent been rotting at home for the past 2 days of holidays...although im sick now slight cough la...but had loads and loads of fun i swear it was fun.

on national day went out with hisyam norfi n gang la...went to bowl while waiting for norfi i was carrying my damned trolley which weighs like 25kg++ around for the whole damn day so heavy lah!...but its a good physical training since i havent been carrying weight ever since i stopped bowling like last year...haha it feels good to bowl again really...although my score is like way waay below average lah..but oh well haha then hisham benjamin and norfi went to my hse to ton but still fell asleep in the end la..then stupid benjamin disturbed my kuma kuma then i was like slapping in on the bed then both hisham and norfi wake up...after about 5.30 norfi woke up and said
Norfi:"eh i want to go home sleep,u all fucking noisy sia"
Me n Benjamin:-laughing our ass off-

benjamin stayed and we swam the water was like damn cold i was freezing inside lah...the moment i got up i sneezed

theni slept till about 2 then around 7 benjamin asked me to go for some bbq went anyway...wanted to skip sch today coz i was like so so tired but went to sch
im currently waiting for that stupid pig to finish his training and then i have to help him to speed up in taekwondo he is really damn slow...i can like dodge his punches with ease and still had a chance to whack him on the face mwahahahah taste my kendou

ok i better do my dnt now...18 more days like OMFG tata


Form your resolve. Charge forward. Leave no regrets. 8:31 PM

Wednesday, August 02, 2006


im DEPRESSED!!

i hate you

my mom's driving me crazy

O's driving me mad

friends are getting on why nerves

what else could possible happen

maybe u will sing a requiem for me the next day

who know...

no such thing as happily ever after for me

its crap

and i mean CRAP


thats is im in the"GREAT DEPRESSION"mood


Form your resolve. Charge forward. Leave no regrets. 9:53 PM

ME.

Name -Ryan Putra
Age -17
B'day -14th November 1989
Loves -God,my friends,not forgetting MY BESTIE NICK=)
Likes -going out with my friends,reading,crapping around
Dislikes-Being wrongly accused,blog spammers,traitors

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#1 HER!!
#2 world peace
#3 a good friend
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