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Thursday, November 09, 2006

tired to play the guitar but yeah...failed... then after that i was opening up drawer for my mp3 as in to look for extra battery for my mp3 then a piece of neoprint slipped of from somewhere...it was the piece of pictures taken with Gerri,xiao han and... someone i do not want to mention...unknowingly i picked the paper up and start looking at it and start thinking backwards at the beginning of the year...before i even thought of the importance of the o's
i'm damn emo now and i hate myself for that...I've tried very very hard to forget about the torn up memories that has began to take place from 3 years ago...whenever i try to remember it i feel so hurt,unknowingly tears always start to fall even though i didn't want them to...

i guess there are certain things that even time cannot heal,close up or make me forget...so...as usual i will start drinking so like yah...finished off a new bottle of wine that my dad just bought...unknowingly...getting slight headache threw up while updating this...
so much pain that it became hatred that burns...tormenting flames of hatred...i hope it just goes away...

i will try to forget...this past has been tormenting me for the whole year now...i dont want to remember those...the pain is unbearable...for so many times i tried to forgive you but i just cant
if the past were so tormenting i would rather forget it but it's just too difficult to forget...am i going to drown myself in sorrows again?i dont know but surely this isnt the time to..

Listening to: Tomorrow's way-Yui

"if living is a battle,i have no choice but to wither win or lose" i guess its right...i'll try,to win that is...


Form your resolve. Charge forward. Leave no regrets. 12:02 AM

ME.

Name -Ryan Putra
Age -17
B'day -14th November 1989
Loves -God,my friends,not forgetting MY BESTIE NICK=)
Likes -going out with my friends,reading,crapping around
Dislikes-Being wrongly accused,blog spammers,traitors

WISHLISTS
#1 HER!!
#2 world peace
#3 a good friend
#4 peace in my heart
#5 got to JAPAN again!!
#6 instrument
#7 mp3

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[X]aldrich
[X]alicia
[X]alistair
[X]alvin tan
[X]amira
[X]anelie
[X]ann(zipporah)
[X]berline
[X]brian
[X]caryl
[X]clarice
[X]crsytal
[X]dave
[X]daniel =)
[X]denyse
[X]diana
[X]dinesh
[X]dwayne
[X]dwitya
[X]edwin
[X]farah
[X]felicia
[X]geraldine
[X]haris
[X]hilary
[X]hui yi
[X]ignatius
[X]jasmine
[X]jayne
[X]kathleen gacad
[X]kezia
[X]kenny
[X]lin jie
[X]li yi
[X]li ying
[X]mark
[X]maverick
[X]NICK =)
[X]nariko
[X]norfi
[X]rasyiqa
[X]sharene
[X]shi ying
[X]soon heng
[X]teck tee
[X]tiffanie
[X]wan jun
[X]wee keong
[X]yee wen
[X]xue jing
[X]xtie
[X]xiao han
[X]yu xiang
[X]yoshi
[X]zuladly
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